July 3, 2016 § 2 Comments
In the context of
the vigorous expansion
of a woody stem,
its core mechanics
white and wet and pulpy,
In the context of
the artless spring
inherent in the infant leaves
unfurling like vaginas
and deep-space nebulae,
The branching of its arms
which are not arms
but more akin
to skin or skeleton or lungs,
The branching of its feet,
akin to feet
but also tongues that lick
and swallow earth,
The care of potted plants
involves their constant recontainment,
outgrowing my ability to lift them.
Thoughtfully arranged around
my living room in genteel tubs
of black, electric dirt,
a thousand crisp, white hairs
dispatch a supple and insistent inclination,
Unmapped until my fingers wrap around the humid ball
in vague, but gradually evolving awe
for this, so unsuppressible and
ethereal, yet at the same time
such a filthy mess.
“This time,” I think,
“I’ll be my gentlest yet.
The new soil flush
the crumbly cluster
than ever, ever, ever
June 24, 2016 § Leave a comment
Ok if I borrow this spot by the sea?
You can have it back when I’m done.
I won’t be here long.
June 21, 2016 § Leave a comment
The rat man retired in October.
A month later, I left Wales.
Falling stars and
the slow, generous wave of a man’s hand.
Today started out the same as any other day.
I only meant to run out for a second.
It was the dignity of tragedy that drew me in,
that lifted me up, like a stranger’s strong and loving arm,
out of the futility of childhood.
Let her laugh.
Let her arrogant, elegant pleasure
rub my face in the ashes of my great and hideous failure.
Let her smooth, sure voice
inflate in icy pockets beneath my skin
as she, endorsed by God,
lists my inadequacies, my iniquities.
Let her be right.
Let me be wrong.
And let us both know it.
The Little Drummer Boy…
The Little Match Girl…
(I would cry and cry and cry)
LET HER LAUGH.
Let her smooth, sure voice ring like a bell.
Let me be alarmed enough to cry
in front of her,
which would cut me to bits, which would bury me in a canyon.
But let me resurrect the joy I killed
because I didn’t want to feel anything.
But tragedy never really vindicates.
It only hurts the little children,
and postpones the piper’s invoice,
wearing thin the patient grace
of his Rat Wisdom.
He showed me again and again
that to kill them, to kill them well,
you have to love them.
If I would hold the hand of that laughing bitch
and walk with her, and tell her
about the heart of the Rat Man,
then we could find something new to believe
and set each other free.
It was me that hung the death knell on the bell
when I ran out, just for a second.
It was only ever really just a bell.
Photo: Rupert Jefferies, via Morguefile
June 4, 2016 § Leave a comment
April 2, 2016 § Leave a comment
The earth is rising up
through floorboards and wood laminate
to draw down my roots.
birdsong and faint machines,
turtle flapping and splashing in his tank.
a pen and fat notepad,
and my second-favorite coffee in my favorite mug.
All my hard work,
and the work I didn’t do,
has brought me here.